a funeral for my once loved youth

holy moly

Sun, 30 May 2004 04:29:31 GMT

upcoming shows, most courtesy of jill:

6/7: The Spill Canvas, This Day and Age @ Furnace (Syracuse) -- anyone want to go to this? i have a +1...
6/10: Fall Out Boy, Anberlin, Don't Look Down (Buffalo) -- i believe i work this day so probably not :-\
6/14: Rx Bandits @ Showplace Theatre (Buffalo) -- if i have off of work i'm there
6/19: FUCKING FINCH @ somewhere in philly -- OBVIOUSLY GOING
6/27: Reel Big Fish, Catch 22, Rx Bandits, Lucky Boys Confusion @ Water Street Music Hall (Rochester) -- pretty definite
7/3: Ben Folds, Guster @ Niagara Square (Buffalo) -- contingent upon work... doubt i'll get it off
7/25: Mae, Days Away, Watashi Wa @ Water Street Music Hall (Rochester) -- need to go to this
8/4: Cursive, Head Automatica, Interpol, Mogwai, Muse, The Rapture, Thursday, The Cure (Cleveland) !!!!! -- definitely going to this... or on the 1st in camden... have to make it to one of them
8/15: Finch @ uhh somewhere in cleveland -- yeah... GOING.
various other finch dates
various warped tours

holy shit. how did i not notice that finch in philly is 3 FUCKING WEEKS AWAY!!! i need to get that day off of work. and now i'm all talking to randy and i'm excited like WHOA.

r2k: is that the one with disturbed
r2k: wow
lindseycore: haha yeah i think so
r2k: shit
r2k: haha... i hope he doesnt kill me

real trashy cunts :)

Fri, 28 May 2004 07:13:42 GMT

ATTENTION RTC:

we need to make hoodies. or maybe... track jackets?? at the very least tshirts.

i'm thinking RTC in big letters on the front... orr maybe just in little letters on one side, then agent names on the back maybe? or something. who knows. what are your thoughts?

of course this would call for a hoodie making party of some sort and whatnot. yeah. woot!

this rules

Wed, 19 May 2004 02:15:47 GMT

lindseycore: so i heard you were talking about me earlier...
r2k: i heard you get crazy at our shows
lindseycore: hahaha
lindseycore: only when people piss me off
lindseycore: which is often
lindseycore: so i guess, yeah

just thought that was funny, considering the amount of punches i've thrown at finch shows. apparently randy wants to get a lindseycam to document the general stupidity of the lame finch fans out there.

anyway. new journal. __worst_is_over. if you haven't added it yet, do it. orrr don't. whatever.

new

Wed, 12 May 2004 04:09:25 GMT

it's become pretty clear that things have changed a LOT in my life. i haven't written at all lately but recent talks with my mother and grandmother make me really want to keep a journal. anyway. what this all means is that i'm starting a new journal. friends only. adding very few people. cause this journal is for me, and nobody else. if you really want/need to be added, comment here or there.

__worst_is_over

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 02:34:09 GMT

breaking news: suspicious presence fills suburbs with shadows and whispers international linguist societies report words losing their meanings, letters disappearing from alphabets, language disintegrating, etc. burning flowers of war bloom in our homes, everything is illuminated new studies show america's attention span is news update: researchers suggest talk is poison new research indicates that landmines in our chest will go off in time. white flags seen burning at daybreak. scientists say that social and environmental factors have accelerated the evolutionary process - next stage anticipated by 2007 today's forecast: glaring sun with endless heat special report: is your family a threat? surgeon general adds "questioning" to growing list of carcinogens. researchers develop synthetic amnesia after years of studying radio waves. today's forcast: holes in clouds are minutes passing news update: surrender by locals anticipated

i suck at titles

Sat, 27 Mar 2004 04:05:11 GMT

oh oh oh so guess who's giving a big "fuck you" to hot topic tomorrow and calling in sick? it's me, it's me. see i'm supposed to work 11-4, allison's 4-8... so i thought, hey i'll see if allison can come in at 1 or 2 so i can have some extra time. she says 2's fine... rich says "umm how about 3," giving me the bullshit excuse that if she comes in earlier she'd need a half hour break. yeah hi moron, if i'm there any less i wouldn't get a break so it's the same fucking difference. so then later on that night i'm looking at the calendar in back and realizing that i did in fact request the day off... i thought maybe i had just forgotten so i figured i'd deal with working cause it was my fault... well i guess i was wrong. so i say something to darcy, and she tells me just to call in sick. she's the one that's there in the morning, and if she doesn't care, then why should i? so jeremy was supposed to practice with his new band but he can't play their first show anyway or something so he's just gonna not go to practice... so now we can leave early and have extra time to spend in buffalo/niagara falls/wherever. yeah it'll be a good time. woooord.

umm tonight i have to clean my room cause it's pretty gross. and then i'm gonna try and sleep early since i really didn't get to sleep till like 8am last night [this morning], and jeremy will be here at like 1130 tomorrow.

i should also work on some websites... i need to talk to kyle about cohen and then get started on... shit.. i forget that other band's name. ha. oh well. oh yeah i also need to get on fucking alive in ashbury's case about paying me. fuckers. it's been a month and a half. i'm sick of excuses. i knew i should have started using contracts sooner......

whatever. time to get shit done.

i'm hungry.

in case you were wondering...

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 07:32:09 GMT

yeah so like.. hmm.. i feel like writing or something. i'm bored and not tired yet.

saturday jeremy and i are going to niagara falls to see thursday and head automatica. head freakin automatica. w00t! we will also get to see the amazing jennyb, jill and megan. there's also a mighty t stop in the plans cause i'm feelin the need for a chicken fajita like whoa. so yeah i'm pretty damn excited for saturday.

oh i guess i should mention the early november show last sunday. it was a good time. went with jennyb, jillie and andrea. much fun with those girls. got some quality pj time in but didn't get to spend much time with the early novembers. they all seemed pretty anti-social. they left right after the show cause joe was driving and wanted to get on the road. so it was just us girls for denny's... or so we thought... as we're finishing, who shows up? spitalfield. so we spent lots of time chatting with them before we left and jennyb unloaded some of her cupcakes. ha. all in all it was a good time. i wish i could go to albany to see the early novembers cause i told them all i'd probably be there, not to mention lots of people i miss will be there... just bad timing i guess. i can't pass up a free thursday/head automatica show. i've seen the early november much more and i know i will get many more chances. seriously though it's just lame that these two shows are on the same night... after only having gone to 3 shows in the past 3 months. meh.

hey look at that i just realized that i put for my mood "tired" but in the beginning i said i wasn't tired yet. i'm dumb. i think i meant i wasn't sleepy. i'm tired but i know if i tried right now i couldn't sleep right away. lame. i'm gonna try soon though.

yeah so um check out the new hair color:

the highlights don't show up all that well in the pic but you can kinda see em.
what do you think? i think i need a trim.
please also note the ridiculous amounts of hygeine products on my dresser. hmph.

and a couple other pics i took out of boredom:

my new shirt yo.

and my new hoodie. ha! ;-)
remember... you love me.

my work here is done.

by the way

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 04:07:35 GMT

i say "fuck" a lot when i'm pissed off.

fucking drama whores

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 04:05:06 GMT

ah, NOW i remember why i fucking hate livejournal.

seriously. less than 8 fucking hours between the time i posted and the time all this fucking lame drama started again. it's fucking ridiculous. someone's purposely started drama and it's fucking bullshit. if you want to start shit, fucking start it to my face, if not, shut the fuck up and stay the fuck out of my life. plain and simple.

and don't tell me to make my journal friends only cause a. i shouldn't have to, i have nothing to hide, and b. whoever the fuck is starting shit is probably my "friend" anyway.

i guess what i'm trying to say is... if you're into starting shit on purpose and playing mind games, there is no fucking room for you in my life. have the balls to confront the situation like a real fucking adult or else get over yourself and keep your mouth shut.

hey, remember that time you punched me in the eye?

Thu, 11 Mar 2004 05:17:57 GMT

so jeremy punched me in the eye tonight. ouch. alright not really. more like elbowed. on accident. but ouch still.

anyway. work today was lame. the DM was there all day and talked to me about management and shit. i really need a new job. but hey at least i got a $5 gift certificate out of the deal. all because i knew about loss prevention. HA!

been trying to find a job lately but it's been pretty unsuccessful. i guess i need to put slightly more time and effort into it until i really find something...

one of the best episodes of futurama is on right now... the one where fry remembers his dog and tries to bring him back to life and whatnot... and at the end it shows how the dog kept looking for fry after fry got frozen and how the dog waited outside the pizza shop where fry worked until it died. how sad...

yeah anyway... um i guess life has been pretty good lately. i really have the most amazing boyfriend ever. even though i'm constantly giving him shit, i love him more than anyone and he makes me so happy. i don't know why he puts up with me. but i won't question it.

i've become closer with a few of my friends and that's cool. other friends have kinda been phased out... whether intentional or not. i guess carrie and melanie hate me... not that i can say i blame them necessarily. carrie has every right to, and i attempted to talk to her a couple times and she never responded. melanie on the other hand... she was the one to go out of her way to call me and make sure we were cool, cause her and carrie are "two separate people" and she wasn't involved in whatever happened. but then my phone cut out, i called her back later and left a voice mail, and haven't heard from her in the 3 weeks since. oh and she took me off her lj friends list. ouch. the major dis. good to know you cared about us being cool.... right. whatever. i'm not trying to start drama. i'm over it. this is who i am and if you can't handle it, then i don't want to be friends with you.

i haven't talked to jake in... i don't know how long. almost 2 weeks i guess. pretty lame, i mean, what with us being "bff" and all... but right now i know us not talking is for the best and my life has been much less stressful because of it. maybe at some point we can learn to be friends again. until then... i have to do what's best for me.

skate and surf is most likely not happening for me... for a lot of reasons. mostly money. partly stress. in all honesty, it's just not worth it to me at this point. there are very few shows i really care about going to in the near future... i'd like to go see the early november in pittsburgh if possible, to be able to spend some time with jenny b, jill, and george, and finally meet the every autumn/lost river drive-in boys... jason and judd mentioned possibly helping me out with gas money so that'd rule. but if that show doesn't happen it's not a huge deal. then there's the early november in liverpool, which i am obviously not missing for any reason. the next weekend i'll either end up in albany for the early november, or buffalo for thursday/andrew wk/head automatica. i'd looove to see head automatica, but i may not have the money for it. other than that, i think there may be a couple shows i'd like to make it to in april but nothing huge i can think of now. at the end of the month is the early november with less than jake in rochester. i would love to make it to one of the copeland/switchfoot shows [yes, i like switchfoot], but i don't think it's coming very close at all. lame. that james from copeland is a super nice guy. the finch tour is getting pushed back so i'll probably be heading to a couple of those shows in may. the new stuff kinda scares me. but as long as they never change, as people, i'll always love every chance i get to see them. i miss them a ton.

~~have i found a replacement??~~

anyway. i guess that's the rundown of what's been happening lately. i'm hungry. jeremy made pizza for us earlier but that was all i ate today. i think i might go find a snack, since i'm nowhere near tired...

leave me comments, bitches.

JERSEY DANCE PARTY WHAT?!

Fri, 20 Feb 2004 06:44:15 GMT

for those of you going to the show aka JERSEY DANCE PARTY tomorrow... 716.432.5038. use it bitches. we'll meet up and dance.

we can live like jack and sally if we want...

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 08:49:46 GMT

so ok i really miss writing. i was anti-lj for a while and i'm still anti the whole lj thing kinda but whatever, i need somewhere to write stuff, especially since the last two weeks have been incredible and i haven't written a word about them.

i won't go into a ton of detail, mostly cause i just don't remember shit... but yeah. things with jeremy are amazing. i don't tell a lot of people a lot more about us cause i guess in a way i'm scared that people will just not understand... but if you really wanna know more, call me or something. i'll gladly fill you in. :)

yesterday and today were amazing. yesterday i worked at 10, which sucked... but i was scheduled till 3. jeremy showed up around 145, there was no one in the store so i chilled with him for 15 minutes, then went to get food for darcy with him, then she let me leave. he followed me home, we made lunch and hung out here until around 9. he fell in love with pinkerton, and then i took lots of pics of them together. so cute. left to go to taco bell, then ended up at his house till like 1. really it was a whole lot of nothing but it was an incredible day. <3

woke up this morning, we were both bored so i ended up back at his house around 230. justin was there and we had a zombie movie marathon until around 8. took justin home, then jeremy's dad called from barnes and noble where he had locked his keys in his car... so we show up with the extra key and then he gave us $20! soo we went to tully's for dinner. mmm. too bad they put us in this back room like all by ourselves. it was so weird. but whatever. fun stuff.

um other than that not a hell of a lot going on in my life. sunday night i guess the shit kinda hit the fan... think best friend vs. lindseycore vs. boyfriend. yeah. not fun. but i think [hope] everyone's over being fucking lame and are gonna just relax about shit. jealousy obviously is a huuuge issue for everyone involved. insecurity blows but i guess it's just something i need to learn to be patient with.

this is so out of order.

saturday was somewhat a disaster, mostly cause i'm a huge asshole. ended up hanging out with jeremy and his friends at mike's late saturday night... last minute thing. not going into any more detail about saturday cause i guess that's something i need to deal with elsewhere.

my parents are gone this week. it's nice. they're also going to florida in like a week and a half. so yeah. its like a nice little vacation for me too. not to mention jeremy not having school this week works out quite well.

courtney is leaving hot topic. she put her two weeks in yesterday. what does this mean? it means we're gonna need a new assistant manager.. if they hire from outside AGAIN i'm gonna be WAY pissed... i'd threaten to quit but i'm fucking lazy and won't get a new job. but still. jay might get it [still super lame] but then we'd need a keyholder. or else meghan from 111 might get it... but that'd mean 111 would then need a new keyholder. either way. i'm next in line for a promotion and $2.50/hr more plus like twice as many hours would be amazing... i need to talk to rich.

i miss a ton of people.

oh oh oh oh oh!!! FRIDAY IS GOING TO BE AMAZING!!! i didn't think i'd be able to go but angela and punk rock mom are INCREDIBLE and are gonna send us some money for the laminates from philly so we'll have the extra cash to go. <3 so georgie is driving here and we'll go from there... and i get to see SO SO SO many people i haven't seen in so long:
george
jake
angela
punk rock mom
steph [ok so i've never seen her]
kristi? [i think she's going??]
ten + pj
hipv
r + s
yeah justin needs to go too
uhhh i'm probably forgetting someone. but yeah. wow. so excited. seriously the night needs to last like... forever... so i can spend tons of time with all the people i miss. god i can't wait! i so want to bake cookies but i don't think i'll have the money to buy stuff. ha.

um what else what else. gah. i dunno. i suck. and i'm tired. i was gonna go to bed so long ago. i think i'm done for now.

tell me how much you missed me.

jeremy. <3

i hate these things

Wed, 04 Feb 2004 08:02:47 GMT

justin says i should post more.

jeremy makes fun of me for having a livejournal. haha. yet he uses makeoutclub.

today at work i almost passed out. a couple of times things started getting spinny and weird. i realized i really haven't eaten anything at all in the past couple of days. i seriously just haven't thought about eating anything. kristen thinks i'm in love? hahaha. but yeah work was pretty lame. we had markdowns, shipment, and lots of cleaning to do, plus redoing a few plexis, which one would think would take a long time, yet we finished everything within an hour or so. took my break early so i could eat a pretzel and not die. seriously NO customers for like 2 hours straight. $388 for the whole day. LAME!

i don't really feel like writing anymore. i want to try and sleep but i know it just won't happen. slept 12 hours last night and i'm a sillylittleschoolgirl so i'm all antsy.

but yeah. my work here is done. you're welcome justinryan.

!!!

Mon, 02 Feb 2004 09:20:30 GMT

summerwarr: you are in another crappy situation
summerwarr: lol
lindseycore: yeah i'd say so
summerwarr: you are like
summerwarr: a crap magnet

:)

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 10:59:49 GMT

i feel like it's necessary to waste a whole post in stating that:

i'm in a super good mood right now.

like i have this huge smile on my face and i don't even know why. i guess it's just lots of little things making me happy. eh. that's all.

oh and i can't sleep. have to be up in 5 hours. laaaaaame.

OOO MARCH!

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 04:30:15 GMT

ohhhhhhh SNAP!

THE EARLY NOVEMBER ARE PLAYING IN LIVERPOOL.

liverpool!!! good god.

the early november, hey mercedes, spitalfield, limbeck:

3/21/04 Liverpool, NY Bleechers
3/22/04 State College, PA The Crowbar
3/23/04 Lancaster, PA The Chameleon Club
3/27/04 Albany, NY Valentines

so i know realistically i'll probably only make it to half of those. but i KNOW i'll be going to at least one, cause there's no way i'm not going to liverpool, and it'll cost me ZERO dollars. good god. well, minus the money it takes me to make pj's cookies. and of course whatever we have to pay to go out dancing afterwards. muahaha.

so yes. liverpool for sure. hopefully albany cause it's less than 2 hours. and IF possible i'd love to try and make one of the PA shows.. but if not i'll be ok. i'm not gonna plan huge cause i know realistically not a lot can happen with allister/hipv being around the same time... plus it all being like 2 weeks before skate and surf and the FINCH TOUR.

wonder why the show's not at 505? hmm. who knows. too bad my favorite bitch that loves to hate me will be there. ah well. not gonna let that stop me.

so who's in? anyone who comes to the liverpool show is welcome to crash at my house. and if you wanna go to albany and you're coming from the west *cough*buffalo*cough*, you can crash here after.

ooooooo

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 02:35:09 GMT

FEBRUARY 20 @ KROME :: $5
[south amboy nj]

the early november / hidden in plain view / others tba

who's in? get yourself to syracuse and i'll do the rest. oh, did i mention it's only $5? yeah. it is.

soooo let me know if you're down for a trip. i can drive back that night and anyone is welcome to crash at my hizzle so we won't need a hotel.

GEORGE / SONYA / ALANA .... i'm looking in your directions. [haha ok not all at one cause i can't look that many ways at once...]... and anyone else who's interested...

LET'S GO LET'S GO LET'S GO!!!

EDIT: angela, i better see you there!!!!

need to know?

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 22:14:49 GMT

so the early novembers made AP's "100 bands you need to know in 2004."

well shit. apparently i've been wasting my time knowing them up until now. not to mention all the other bands i know on that list.

damn..

too good not to post

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 09:14:09 GMT

MeganisTHEreason: i remember...i was staying at Jennys when i saw it ...i remember saying out loud "yaaay lindsey" haha

hahaha that's awesome!! megan and i totally bonded over how much we rule tonight. come june we'll be living way close and hanging out and having lots of fun.

feb 21 dance party!! ohhh how i hope i can make it. i should be able to, there's not a hell of a lot goin on in feb. so excited!!

who the fuck...

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 05:52:56 GMT

this one's... well.. i'll let you see for yourself. ha.

bored again

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 04:18:29 GMT

yet some more fruits of my boredom... check it out, these ones are a little less, uhh.. pimp.

pimpin...

Sat, 24 Jan 2004 07:50:04 GMT

see what happens when i get bored?

what i am to you...

Thu, 22 Jan 2004 06:01:15 GMT

uhh ok so my buddy list has been gone since last night. it tells me it's unavailable but "has not been lost." so i have 0 buddies showing up on my list. thank god i was gone all day cause it's driving me absolutely fucking crazy. fuck that shit.

anyway. spent the day with jake, since it was the last chance we'd get before he goes back to school. :-\ we didn't do much, just chilled at his house, went to the mall to get his hair cut, packed a little of his stuff [ok, i watched], and watched the oc. the show's finally getting better again. woo. jake downloaded a ton of music that he's gonna send to me, i'm excited.

aaaand i got tons of [FREE] stuff today. new hipv poster cause the one george gave me got rained on. new ten poster cause mine was ripped cause it was taken off the wall at a show. rxb poster and steel train poster. very limited edition first pressing of the new DA ep. aaaaaand the best part: dtr hoodie and ALKALINE TRIO HOODIE!! the dtr one richard sent to jake, and jake didn't want it cause "it doesn't fit right." and the alk3 one is the one he stole from some chick at school that he hates now. he was gonna just leave it at home cause he didn't want to take it back to school with him in case she saw him... so instead i stole it, since he wasn't gonna be getting any use out of it anyway. so yeah at least it's mine for a few months. i am soo never going to want to part with it. it's the one i've wanted FOREVER. mmm.

so jake had to move his mom's car so i could leave, so he back into the road, then i drive away, and he follows me and keep flashing the lights, so i think maybe he needs me for something so i pull over and get out, but no, he's just being jake. so i get back in the car, then he follows me to the end of the block, then i go straight and he turns... not gonna lie, i got a little teary eyed as i was driving away. cause i don't know when i'm going to be able to see him again. i'm way to broke to make a trip down there anytime soon and he won't be home till the end of march. :-\ so then i'm driving home... and lindseypod decides it wants me to cry... cause first it picked standing on the edge of summer live, with geoff in the beginning talking about how "you can go at any time..." and then it picked soco's globes and maps, then fucking quiet things that no one ever knows... that song seriously makes me want to like curl up and die. THEN... FUCKING LETTERS TO YOU ACOUSTIC. good god. so here i am driving, with tears in my eyes, but at the same time with a huge smile on my face cause jake and i are texting each other and he told me he loved me "more than chandler, joey, monica, rachel, phoebe and ross combined!" that boy and his friends...

anyway, at least the drive went quickly. home in just about an hour. pretty good.

i'm hungry.

and i want my fucking buddy list back now. i mean, doubleyou-tee-eff, ya know?

write it down...

Wed, 21 Jan 2004 05:36:17 GMT

promise to self:

be sure to write about major events in my life. i'm reading past journal entries and now and pretty mad that i never wrote a word about my trip to cali OR skate and surf weekend. wtf. those are probably the two most memorable experiences for me in 2003, yet not a word about them in my journal[s]. i think it's cause so much happens and then i get back and it's just overwhelming and hard to remember everything...

which is why anytime i go anywhere for more than a couple days [especially when it's for shows], THERE WILL BE A TOUR JOURNAL. does this make me a nerd? most likely. hahaha sergio would most definitely make fun of me. but i don't care. someday i will definitely appreciate having the memories down on.. well, not paper.. but you know. in writing i guess.

reminisce...

Tue, 20 Jan 2004 07:38:41 GMT

i've been reading my old livejournal entries. it's incredible how many things have changed since a year ago.

corgan [r.i.p.]
it was exactly a year ago that i got him. he didn't even make it to a year.

and for some reason, this made me smile a lot:
carebeth: ur crazy
carebeth: i think andrew mcmahon sings about you
carebeth: "you and your big dreams.. "